The definition of a shitty day.

Earlier today I found out that if I want to study abroad this summer, I would have to pay entirely out of pocket. That’s upwards of $10,000 (though probably much more) for 7 weeks of school. And that’s because the program I applied to is 1.5 credits and the school will only apply aid to 2 or more credits. I won’t pretend I’m anything but devastated by this. At NO point during my ENTIRE application process was I informed that I would need to pay out of pocket, but rather was led to believe that the tuition would fall under my current student loans and finances.

I also lost my phone for the first time ever tonight. Thankfully, an angel of a girl picked it up and I got it back. But for a while tonight I just couldn’t even function.

Basically, at every moment I wasn’t in rehearsal or in class, I’ve been crying. I am honestly beside myself and even though I feel like a child, I really feel like I’ve been severely wronged. But there’s nothing I can do because WHO HAS TEN THOUSAND DOLLARS JUST LYING AROUND. I certainly don’t, and my parents most certainly don’t.

Guess I’ll just have to watch a supremely sad movie, cry it all out, and pretend to do homework while simultaneously not sleeping and trying not to get sick. Story of my whole fucking life.